Hurting to Live

Lynse- thank you so much for your courage in sharing this. Your blog is such a blessing anyway - but when you really go deep like this, and become vulnerable, it shows incredible strength - and is such a testimony to what Christ has done in you. I have never self-harmed, but recently (as an adult) I have felt such strong emotional pain, that the thought of causing physical pain to replace the emotional was appealing to me - and thankfully I was able to get help and avoid the cycle - but my point is that I get it. I understand the desire, and I understand how it could become an addiction. Blessings on you for your honesty, and for the way that your words will reach so many! ... See all content Hide content

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

Thank you for sharing. I didn't understand cutting before and was scared of it when someone told me they did it. I hope I'll be a better listener next time. God reminded me recently that my coping mechanism for years was to plan my own suicide. Whether I acted on it or not was my control. I'm not a young person but I was only able to share this a few months ago. God has healed me and also used the verse about my body being a temple. Thank you for your honesty and bravery and for letting God use you. ... See all content Hide content

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

I am anxious to hear what your insider observations are about what is helpful/constructive for a friend trying to come along side someone addicted to this, as well as what a friend should avoid doing.

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

I totally agree that you need to tell someone to get over it. I tried to stop for a while without telling anyone, but was never very committed to it. Any time it got hard, all notion of quitting abandoned ship. Once I told someone, I was a lot more committed to it. Also, even if I had had the committment before, I probably would have given up by now if I had not told anyone, because it is super hard to stop and no one would have ever known I hurt myself because of how I have done it. Right now I am at a point where I have not hurt myself in 192 days, but every day is a challenge, because every day I want to hurt myself so much. Some days it gets so bad that I want to just give up, but I do not want to let my friend down (especially because by using traditional definitions of friends she is my only friend, although I tend to re-define friend). I think that telling someone else also can help get perspective and help on the harder questions...like I had convinced myself that in certain situations that God would want me to hurt myself and I was trying to figure out how to rectify that with the idea of my body being a temple...I feel like this comment is way too long so I am going to stop repeating myself because you probably get the idea now. :) ... See all content Hide content

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

yes! Jesus is our deliver. Count that as a blessing that she is open and willing to let you walk with her! That is huge. any assistance i can be to you in that process i would love to!

5 months ago by Lynse_Leanne on Wordpress

Thanks! and it is all God's work. not mine.

5 months ago by Lynse_Leanne on Wordpress

Thanks for stopping by and commenting. Thanks for your encouragement, it means alot.

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

Thank you. I know that God uses things like this. I am just willing and open to be used.

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

Thank you! It is not easy to open up, but i know that God will use it.

5 months ago by Lynse_Leanne on Wordpress

asking the person is always the key. because i can list 5 million reasons i do it...but my story is different than theirs. so of course their \"whys\" would be different.

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

a few years ago one of our interns struggled with self-harm. i so badly wanted to help her, but felt clueless how to. i did some research, but mostly just asked her a lot of questions. engaged in open honest dialogue with her about it. it proved to be healing for her and helpful for me…

i value transparency. thank you for sharing your heart, your journey.

5 months ago by alece on Wordpress

You should def check out my friend @lynseleanne's most recent post: Hurting to Live. a snipet of my story. http://tr.im/CplL.

5 months ago by chobbs9 on Twitter

Sending it now to some people I know who are dealing with the same secrets -- on both sides. Thank you.

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

Lynse this is a powerful story! You are going to minister to so many teenagers in this generation! Thanks for ALWAYS be so honest in your writing and updates on facebook!

5 months ago by on Intensedebate

Thank you so much for sharing this. I know God will use it for someone to "stumble" across on the www and it will give them hope. I am ministering to a cutter now, and you are right, its a deep, deep root that really takes control. BUT JESUS! He truly is our deliverer.... from all things! I have a front row seat to watch God transform her life and heal her pain!

5 months ago by on Intensedebate